i'm guessing ...

that this detox thing is working as beyond feeling a bit light headed I think my body is enjoying the break from all the bad things I put into it. It's quite amazing how quickly you realize much crap you do eat when you're forced to think about it... however in retrospect... I would not recommend such an activity so close to xmas and so close to Tasha's and Andrea's Birthdays! No chocolate cake for me *poo*

And yes, if you're wondering which I'm sure you are... it is possible to catch a chill on your ankles while cycling... I discovered that little chestnut on my way in this morning... brrrr...

so the plan is to do xmas shopping for CDN peeps today at lunch. I'm going to buy peeps here xmas pressies from home as it seems like more fun to receive exotic gifts... yea well, not too sure about Toronto being exotic but we'll just pretend.

After making a botched 20£ donation to Ryan air... I am the biggest ditz in the world... Siobhan is not coming this weekend as initially planned. Too bad really as I wanted to see her! But in all things sad there is something glad... I'm going to head down to Canterbury this weekend instead!

Prior to leaving, the girls and I are hitting the shops to attempt to decorate our sadly un furnished flat... It will be really nice to finally make it into a home... the last two places I've lived have always been a stop gap and I've never settled or decorated.

It's a gloriously sunny day which makes me well happy. They had announced rain all week. I just love it when they're wrong!

you know

i'm definitely not the first person nor the last to ponder upon the capacities of human emotions...

sometimes when i'm not experiencing any major high or low I wonder to myself how I could have let certain things in my past upset me so much... it just seems impossible... I cite it as just a simple chemical fluxes in my system... It's kind of fascinating how that emotions are purely chemical.

"Time heals" and all that jazz- I do wonder if it is possible to have an infinite amount of love to give? When you've been hurt or you've hurt yourself you think you'll never ever be able to open yourself up to such pain ever again... but nothing ventured nothing gained... and as time passes you meet someone new, and things re-develop.

So I come back to that nagging question... Is if it is possible to have an endless supply of emotion to share with each new person in your life, or do the marks of time eventually start to show? I feel slightly worn down in this capacity, but don't get me wrong I am most definitely happy in my new relationship (albeit cautiously)... now, is that cautiousness a mark of me being worn down or is it just a defence mechanism? It's all part of the process... or else i guess it's just true that it takes a lot of love, to keep the heart from breaking....

i'm detoxing

for the first time ever... it's a five day plan. the only hard part is having no dairy and no diet coke! If you know me you're probably thinking what on earth is that girl going to eat as she practically lives on dairy products... lets just say it ain't much. Lord knows how any one ever manages to diet! It's so hard to think before you eat!!! Oh yea, and it's just never the right time to not be able to eat chocolate cake... what was I thinking!? next time I will have to plan before I attempt to cleanse my body of all the abuse that I've subjected it to of late

16 working days left (not including weekends of course and not including the time I'm taking off to go to Paris with miss W at the beginning of next month. If I said that I was counting down the minutes it wouldn't be too far from the truth.

apples are so filling